Tidbits abouts me....part 2

So i was talking about my annoying habits, certain desires etc. etc.  Now continuing from where i last left off.

31) I was a district level football player in school.

32) I had failed in the 1st Marathi test in my 10th std and later scored 76 in the final boards :)

33) Although i was on a regular morning and evening tea for 2yrs, when i was working in Raymonds, I am still not addicted to tea.

34) Ice tea is my fav drink.

35) When i was younger my fav color was red which graduated to blue and is now purple.

36) The historic moment in my life was when i went to Siachen.

37) I have once fallen sprawled on the ground, face down and yet survived with no broken teeth or a broken nose.

38) I was once checking the sharpness of a knife wid my finger and ended up cutting my finger wid it. :P .. i know very stupid.

39) When i was little i used to love to pick up baby frogs wid my fingers.. i am disgusted by them now :P

40) I had once had a physical fight with a girl in my 9th std and she had mauled me with her long finger nails. I had all 10 nail digs on my arms. My doc thought i was bitten. I still have those scars.

Tidbits abouts me....

Was just thinking what are those little interesting or uninteresting things about me that no one knows? What are those little secret desires that i hold and what are those annoying habits about me that might be driving others crazy? Following is the list of these things in no particular order.

1) I read the newspaper from back to front.
2) Whenever i get a new pen in my hand, the first thing i do is dismantle it to see what mechanism it works on.
3) Whenever i see cars on the road while driving down or otherwise..i read its number plate and try to guess which state it belongs to.
4) There was a time when i aspired to fly and be a pilot.
5) People may have cried while watching a movie... i have cried even while reading a book.
6) I have a habit of biting my lips all the time. Dunno how many people that annoys.
7) I am a shopoholic.
8) I have a huge fetish for shoes
9) Winter is my favorite season.
10) I love babies but i also have a phobia of child birth.
11) I intend to adopt a kid someday.
12) I never feel guilty about spending on buying books.
13) I had once read somewhere related to Feng Shui that you must not sleep in a room with other people where u get reflected in a mirror, as this will cause fights between the people who are reflected in it. Since that day, without fail, i always cover my dressing table mirror before going to bed. I share my room with my younger sis.
14) My cupboard always looks like a hurricane hit disaster zone. I literally have to dive into it to find whatever i am looking for.
15) I do not have any special fondness to any genre of music... i just listen to whatever is playing, except for hard rock.
16) I had cried when my 1st gold fish died.
17) I have always been intrigued about outer space.
18) My 1st ever obsessive crush was Akshay Khanna.
19) I enjoy movies or serials about the supernatural. Thats another thing that intrigues me after outer space.
20) I was a backbencher, chattering away to glory.
21) I had once tripped a running kid, by sticking my foot out, just to see the outcome. I was 6yrs old then, and mean too i guess.
22) I never get tired of staring at the moon or the stars.
23) I wish to once shamelessly flirt with a guy to the point of making him embarrassed. ;)
24) I want to skydive someday.
25) I am extremely scared of bungee jumping and i dont think i will ever be able to do it.
26) I wanna go on a solo holiday somewhere, to be just by myself.
27) I have a tattoo that i was successfully able to hide from my mom for 1.5yrs before she found out.
28) I am absolutely terrified of cockroaches along wid a few more creepy crawlies.
29) My biggest fear in life is of losing my loved ones.
30) As much as i love clicking pictures, i love getting my pics clicked too.

Cant seem to remember anymore... will keep updating this space.

On Death and Dying...

Recently i was told by a friend that i am very afraid of dying. Although i did not correct him there cause it would have seemed hypocritical if i did. But it brought about a thought process in me. I have always been a firm believer that death is inevitable and that it will come when it has to come and there is nothing you can do to stop it. Then how is it that i have put myself across to him as a person who is afraid of dying?
I have been introspecting on this, since that day. What is it that is making me afraid of death?
I have now realized that it is because of two reasons...

1) I have been witness to my share of death and loss. I have seen what is does to parents to see their child die. The person who died has died, but what he leaves behind is the cause of all grief and sorrow to his loved ones. It is this fear of causing any kind of sorrow to my parents thats causing me to be afraid of dying.

2) The 2nd reason happens to be a more selfish one. I am afraid that my life would not mean anything if i died right now. I havnt yet done anything in my life. And i dont want to be forgotten. There is this strong urge to be alive even after i die and to keep living on.
And this brings me to the next realization - What do i need to do now, to keep living on later?
I still dont have the answer to that question, but i know it will come when the time is right. Until then i'll try to live my life and not just exist in it. :)

The irony of taking "Risks" to ensure "Safety"

I always thought that pilots and more specifically Air force pilots have the riskiest jobs in the world. Then this morning i saw a documentary report by NGC on test pilots. Do you know what test pilots do? They test the new  aircrafts (whatever they may be) to make sure they are safe enough to fly. Irony isnt it?

What caught my attention was the processes the pilot and the aircraft goes through in order to deem an aircraft safe. The pilots first test the basics and then its limits. And what are these limits u would ask. They are the limits of the altitude an aircraft can go to and the limits of the speed an aircraft can undertake. So how do u test these limits? But of course, by crossing them. These pilots first cross the limits and then deliberately lose control of the aircraft till the last minute from which the aircraft can be pulled to safety. You getting goose pimples yet? What if they cant pull up in time u will ask. Well then if they are lucky, they can eject in time and if not they just go down with the aircraft. Sounds scary right?

What was most distinguishable about these pilots is how much they love to fly and how much they love being a test pilot, in spite of the risks involved. More admirable was the fact that how understanding and supportive their families are. And even in case there are fatal accidents they do not blame the aviation, the accept that this is what their husbands/sons/brothers/fathers loved to do and they died doing just that.

Why is this blog entry relevant to me? I recently lost a pilot friend in a chopper crash? I know he loved to fly and he died doing just that. This blog entry is dedicated to him. May he rest in peace wherever he is. Gaurav you will be immensely missed.

Things U Miss...

Recently i have become a hardcore internet addict for having nothing else to do. (Thats what i am saying.... ) But whenever i have been extremely busy i crib that i dont have time to read, to paint, and indulge myself in some other pleasures of life. And now that i have the time... i just go ahead and waste it on the internet and the new tech age idiot box.

Last weekend my internet died on me, and i felt that my life has come to a standstill, coz i wouldnt be able to get my net running till the next monday. So what would i do for three days??

Friday evening i spend with a friend i havent met in a long long time. My classmate from NIFT. It was a wonderful evening catching up on lost time. Sitting at a lounge in Vashi we spend time drinking and eating and laughing and being nostalgic and remembering the happy years of NIFT.
Most of Saturday and Sunday was spend watching movies with mom on TV. And one of these days when my parents were out for a while, i learnt what it feels like to be in your own company and laughing all by yourself on things that are funny. (I was watching "Chup Chup Ke" on Tv) I may have smiled to myself before or maybe even giggle by myself at something, but this time around i was a laughing riot. This is something i dont remember doing and it felt soo good. I felt soo happy from within :)

And last evening i did something that i havnt done in this entire monsoon season. I just sat there by the window and watched the rain. It was 5 in the evening when the sky started getting darker and darker and strong winds had started blowing. It felt like autumn when the dry leaves from the trees were breaking off their tethers and slowly floating towards the earth. The hot air left behind by the afternoon sun was rapidly replaced by a cool breeze. I opened all my windows to let some of it in. Then came the thundering and the lightning and although the streaks of lightning could not be seen from where i was seated, the clouds kept glowing up from time to time accompanied by the loud rumblings. Then came the sweet smell of earth as though the ground had been parched for years and was welcoming the rains. When the first drops fell i saw everyone trying to find some shelter, the dogs, the pigeons, the lone Bai on the road... and then rains came down as though there was no tomorrow.

How often do we miss the little things in life because we are so involved with the latest technology. I myself am one of those and i knew for sure that i wouldnt survive 3days without my internet, but i did and how :)